this past weekend was valentine's day and it felt as though both 1. the whole week leading up to it was so festive and full with love and 2. that it literally came and went in the blink of an eye. i was home for the weekend, as i usually am because i #lovemyfamily and i am #scared (but we don't have to get into that right now), and i spent most of it working on my computer and laying around with my mom. i told my mom i really wanted a dubai chocolate strawberry cup and she ordered it with a quickness that made me feel very pampered and very grateful. it's in the small acts of love like this that keep me full. and so we sat on the couch, her with her crepe and me with my dubai chocolate strawberry cup, while i worked on some assignments and on some formatting stuff for this website. the night came and went, and we went to bed. the next day, we shared leftovers from the night before and she brought me popcorn and pretzels while i sat alone at the table doing work. and then it was valentine's day! my sister and her boyfriend came over to have coffee in the morning and my step-dad bought me the prettiest pink flowers and chocolate and we ordered a heart-shaped pizza and it was all very beautiful and sweet. i laid in my mom's bed doing work (again, shocker) while she got high in her bathroom lol. she came out and we watched a telenovela that we've already watched like three times and i pretended to pay attention to my assignment but it was all just so beautiful and sweet and i fell asleep. her and my sister had plans to go out for dinner and do whatever people who are not in long-distance relationships on valentine's day do so i cleaned my room, lit some incense, and took a shower. by this time, it was about 19:00 so i called my boyfriend and we spent our special day of love doing the following: ordered the same meal, drank some wine, listened to the many playlists i have made for him, played a few games of natural disaster on roblox, and then proceeded to stay awake until 02:00 (03:00 his time) playing our new minecraft realm server. a friend from work was throwing a party that i might have liked to attend, but the night was so beautiful and sweet and the love felt so alive and well and i would not rather be anywhere else. fast-forward a few hours, i crawled into my mom's bed at like 06:00 and dozed off with her and my dog, sexy, until around 08:00 when i got up, cleaned, and left to go grab coffee with a friend who was in town for the weekend. this felt so beatiful and sweet and full of so much love. and it is all around! love is all around! it is in the trees! it is in the air we breathe!