i have a few ideas for this website that i want to work on, that i have ruminated on, but have found little motivation to satisfy them. i told myself that spring break would be the perfect time to work on my website, and honestly it is, but i find myself riddled with lethargy and a sort of evil-ness. after i turned in my finals on wednesday, just on time, i slept and slept and slept some more. i have been taking my mom to work and picking her up when she's off, as i always do when i am home, but the in between from 10:30-17:30 have been spent in a sleepy, sleepy haze. my body was sore for a few days and so was my neck, oddly enough. it was on the front of my neck, by where my throat is. all of these muscles hurt, so when i chewed or swallowed or looked up, i felt an ache. it was the kind of muscle soreness you get after working out. it honestly felt nice. nice in the way that sometimes you need reminders that you are a physical body and that you are actually real and that your actions actually impact the world. anyways, i feel hopeful now that i might have some energy to get through the rest of the week, given that i exercise unprecedented levels of patience. which should be easy enough.