wednesday, february 25th, 2026

learning and being a student

i am extensively frustrated at trying to learn css and i am trying to be patient and learn it like a good student but it is making me angry. my code is not working, the fonts are not switching how i want them to (when they used to) and i just spent over an hour trying to learn how to make a navigation bar only for it to entirely fail and i could have spent that time working on other assignments instead. i learned nothing from this experience. i am so annoyed. i am frustrated that i cannot capture what i want to with the current state of this website and that i have such a big vision for what i want it to be and do. but i do not have the tools currently. i have so much passion but not skill. not only this, but my freaking teaching assistant keeps leaving comments on my midterm essay and not giving me any concrete grade. i feel like ripping my arms off. i don't even agree with her comments, which is the worst part. my professors and teaching assistants are generally pretty fair, but if i end up getting a low score i am going to lose it. it says 0% on the assignment but like, surely that is physically impossible. i don't even want to go to our last discussion section, tomrrow, now. dkajngdanhdbaknfshdgbhfkanjkanghkfbakfdnkjnshjngksandjfnhskgbanjsfklndhsfgbkfsnkfndnfkasmkdjnbhgvdfcshabfjgkngj why must the world be so cruel!!!!! everything is so stressful!!!!! i am so freaking anxious!!!!!! so much passion!!!!! not enough skill!!!!!

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